Victorious Defeat

There is nothing worse than feeling constantly defeated.

There is nothing better than friends who remind you that the battle has already been won.

It has been a very rough week. Lots of new, lots of hard old, lots of readjustment, lots of running. And unfortunately, lots of complaining. I'm tired of complaining. So I'm not going to use this post as another way to complain about my sucky couple of weeks.

Instead, I'm going to recap magic:

1. The beauty of dance. I can't dance. I can't even pretend to dance well. But I love watching dance. Beautiful. Our student dance concert was this weekend. Stories through motion.

2. Surprises. I was so blessed by all the surprise visits I had from friends this weekend. It was just what I needed.

3. Seeing progress. There is so much magic to theatre that sometimes it's easy to gloss over it. But watching something fall together, that's magical.

4. Hugs. Enough said.

5. Finding support in unexpected places. This week has been full of freak outs. But more people have stepped up and supported me than I realized were there. It has been such a blessing.

6. Good talks. Not just surface level, "How is your day" questions (because all my answers were depressing...), but real talks about things that matter. Not all topics were cheerful or fun, but necessary and helpful.

7. Rekindled friendships. I love getting a friend back after a time of distance.

8. Goofy cartoons. They just make things better.

9. Reminders. Reminders that God can handle my fears. Reminders that there are lots of options for my future, I just need to go one step at a time. Reminders that my heart is with people who love me and support me. Reminders that I need to love and support them just as much. Reminders of God's faithfulness.

There has been a lot on my mind lately, hopefully I can sort it out, hopefully I can tell you all about it sometime.

Tech week for the musical is coming up. Busy, busy, stressful, stressful. But I'm excited.

Until next time.