Looking for Moments

I am allowing myself the next 30 minutes to do something that isn't school or theatre related. Blog. Obviously doesn't happen very often.

I have such conflicting feelings that describe me right now. At times, I definitely feel like I'm drowning. Kind of a terrifying feeling. So much to do, I constantly ask myself when I'll have time to finish it.

But then, like a gift from God, there are moments when I feel like I'm conquering. They are brief, usually quite brief, but they exist. And that's enough to keep me going until the next glimmer of precious free moments arrive. Sometimes they are planned poems, sometimes they are escapes for ice cream, sometimes they are hugs, sometimes they are meals with friends. Luckily, they always come.

I keep telling people that Thanksgiving lulled us into a false sense of security, then slammed us with everything we had left to do in what I have deemed "the period of hell." The two weeks before finals week where everything is due and everyone is really busy. I rarely have a dead week (the week before finals), I almost always have a death week that almost kills me.

If it wasn't this, it'd be something else, I suppose.

The semester is coming to a close. 15 days until the end of finals. That's pretty scary. I only have a semester of classes left. I'm not ready for real life. College life is much easier.

But, we keep going. We don't have an option. But we do choose to keep looking for those glimmering moments of fresh air that makes everything possible again.

Until next time, look for your moments.